Avinash Bhasi's BLOG ~the FrEeDoM LoVeR ~

an early Demise

2011-12-19T15:29:00.000-08:00

Hi svvn friends... our classmate...dear friend,,, my cousin brother ...who I grew up with..Pratheesh (Kannan)... passed away this morning...it has been a great shock for evryone in my family including me..

Someone who I wanted to be more friends with,... someone who i wanted to know more about...maybe I was too busy, I dint talked to him for months or I was waiting for a better tomorrow..now that I realize he is nomore..all those unspoken words remain in my heart forever....God picks those, who he likes the most..life is so unpredictable...

Everyone pray for his soul.. :'(

A new beginning

2011-10-10T02:37:00.000-07:00

Got a new job after job-hunting for 2 months @ TATA communication ltd. The 5 and a half months vacation in india was awesome. Life was kingsize there. No work, no stress and lots of food with motherly love.

Life is taking a new turn. Everything is different around. Starting everything from scratch. I am so gracious to God for surrounding me with beautiful people.

May day

2011-05-01T12:22:00.000-07:00

I have taken my learners licence after a gap of 4 years. It was a long queue and I waited for 2 and a half hours to get the learners licence. I am taking driving lessons too. This time I will bag my driving license. 23 years old and still dont have a license,, so embarassing.

My vaccation in India

2011-03-22T10:59:00.000-07:00

I was having fun talking with my nephew Madhav. He kept talking and i was really bored, so I videod it.

A pleasant day

2011-02-14T20:43:00.000-08:00

Sync ..

2011-01-14T01:17:00.000-08:00

If this whole life was a dream seen by some infant who died hundreds of years ago. Isnt that cool?

I would like to think so.
We all have dreams.
We see dreams when we are awake and while asleep. We think, we imagine, and some of us write down. Have we ever felt that, those we write down or imagine or dream, simply happens as it is. It will be a shock. Or a great coincidence.

Maybe I am drawn to such thoughts because of my love towards fantacy and fiction.

There was a novel called Futlity by an author named Morgan Robertson about a ship named Titan. According to the novel this ship was considered unsinkable as It was the biggest of its time. And so, it had only less lifeboats for its whole 3000 passengers. The novel dealt with the sinking of this ship by striking an iceberg on April near midnight in the North Atlantic. The ship was racing at a speed of 25 knots and hit the iceberg at the starboard and sunk in 5 minutes.

You wouldnt be amazed if this novel was published on 1912 after the sinking of the great Titanic as the tragedy happened on 14 April 1912 @ 11:40pm presicely. Well its true.

But the actual fact was, It was re-published on 1912 by the auther himself as he realized that the novel's theme greatly resembled to that of the real incident. Yes, the novel Futility was first published on 1898, 14 years prior to the tragedy, even before Titanic was made. Thats not all.

The size, weight, speed, point of impact, number of passengers, month of impact, number of lifeboats, horsepower, number of propellers and even the number of compartments were all shockingly almost accurate in the novel.
Not to mention the ship's name Titan. Well, Titanic's makers had a tradition of naming its ships ending with an 'ic' like oceanic, olympic, Germanic, britannic and the list goes on. Otherwise the name could also have been the same.

How do you explain this? Is it coincidence?

I dont think so. Some people call this phenomenon "Synchronicity".

So it might happen like the imagination or dream of a human being can become a reality.

If the company "White Star Line" who made the Titanic and nicknamed it unsinkable, ever read this book before Titanic's maiden voyage, that might have saved many lives.

I believe that God send us a warning sign in the form of Robertson's imagination and created the "Futility". The fact that man's arrogance and intelligence is nothing in front of God's will was thoroughly established when the novel was republished again on 1912 indicating "you were warned but didnt listen".

There might have been signs and warnings before every disaster that took place. I am not saying "There was". Maybe we saw these signs and perceived them wrongly.

Synchronicity

Synchronicity is a phenomenon where two different events share a common link which has some deep meaning or is somehow related to the person involved in it.

I have something personal to discuss which I believe is something close to this phenomenon. After my graduation, I was job-hunting for months. Suddenly one morning about 6am, I received a message wishing me luck for finding the job soon. Also it said "I will pray" for that to happen soon. I was curious as it was so early to receive a message, also an unknown number. I called back and It was one of my friends. We talked for sometime and I was about to sleep again after the call as I had nothing to do other than applying online. Before falling to bed I saw a today weekly on my bed probably put by my roommate. In it was a message written in bold

" Tomorrow is too late".

I thought if it had anything to do with my ongoing lazy life.

I just read and then slept again. After one hour I got a call from my friend saying there is an interview and asked me to get ready for it right away. They were looking for 2 noobs. I was not even prepared. The interview was within 1 hour and I rushed for it and got that job. Although the job didnt go very well for me, but this was an example of synchronicity as it was my first interview and first job.

So in conclusion Synchronicity is the way of the Universe trying to tell you something

Seasons ..

2011-01-12T10:06:00.001-08:00

In Chennai, 7-star mansion with Shibun.

I was having appendicitis and had just udergone an operation before this pic was taken.

@ Singapore, Tampines blk451 on a free day.

Took a lot of pics using my k850i phone.

@ TP after a workout

@ TP library after classes. I was watching the movie "My cousin Winnie" when one of my friends took this pic. I am totally detached from the physical world.

@ TP. So happy that a presentation was just over

@ TP near mensa canteen.

@ TP after a lecture

@ TP before my graduation ceremony

@ Tampines, st-22, During the first time I came to Singapore. Posing with Chandi (Prashant, he is from Chandigarh, so the name Chandi) and Aghosh after a lunch

@ tampines, blk-212 after a basket ball game. Exhausted. That couch was so relaxing

@ Anvin's Block. Accidently passed by and there was a b'day party going on for Jibu. Had Semya Payasam. see its placed around the cake

After jogging @ TP ground

@ Bugis snap taken by Anvin

1.1.11

2011-01-01T00:11:00.000-08:00

1.1.11

four 1's coming together. This will happen again this year.

1.11.11

11.1.11

11.11.11

Isnt that wierd? Will this happen in any other years???

Usually this happens only once in a year.

The 26000 year old mayan calender comes to an end on December 21 2012 @ 11:11. According to the mayans, this marks a re-birth to our world. 11:11 is considered a door way to change. Some people think the world is gonna end in 2012, but I believe some change is gonna happen then. Something positive.

The Year 2010

2010-12-31T12:37:00.000-08:00

One more year passess with lots and lots of memories engraved in it. 2010 was a wonderful year for me. So much things happened during this period of my lifetime. This year changed me as a person and as a bachelor I enjoyed this year to the fullest. There are a few things I would like to remember when it comes to the changes that reflected on my life as a person and as a social being. These are the great things that happened to me during 2010.

New Job

I was about to get my singapore PR, when suddenly due to certain circumstances I lost my previous job @ viewqwest due to conflict with my ex boss Vig (I called him pig). I was so lucky I got a new job @ UTAC in a week and got my PR card in the month followed. Compared to viewqwest, the job here was so relaxing and it was normal office hours. I really enjoyed working with my new team mates (Cant forget Faisal my team leader) and free environment. In viewqwest, I used to sit in a semi dark room the whole day and attended calls from customers. I was really fed up with shouting from customers as we couldnt say anything back. This changed in UTAC as here we dealt with users. I really had an attitude isssue with most of the stubborn users but they were totally harmless. So I had a really good job during 2010.

My sony alpha 330 camera

It was my long time dream to buy a cam as I was so passionate towards photography. I bought my cam during february of 2010.

Friends

I made a lot of good friends this year. Some of them are Vimesh, Arshim, Jibin, Sulabh, Thushar, Jinto, Giji, Faizal, Wei Xiang, Nyan Lin Hyat, Eugene, Reshma, Saheer, Renjith etc. Dont know if i missed anyone. These are the names that come to my mind first. The best among them was Vimesh I should say. He was and will be a really good friend. We used to workout during midnight before gong to bed. Also he taught me a bit of karate. We shared some common interests.

California Fitness

This year I started a membership @ California fitness. This is one of the best gyms ever. I joined here with my good friend Anvin. This gym helped me transform physically and mentally. I will really miss this place.

Cooking

I learnt to cook this year. My Gurus were Jinto and Thushar. I really enjoyed cooking and most times I did it alone. I spend a lot of time in the kitchen for my meal preperation. Well most of my experiments were tasty.

Rocking

The most rocking moment was Giji's Birthday. We started celebrating from 12 am to 6am in the morning. We bought 2 packets of egg, 2 soya milk and coke. We threw the eggs, soya milk and coke at her. It was a rocking party @ bedok reservoir. After that all of the guys got drunk and slept @ the reservoir itself. We left for home @ 6am.

Resolution

The next year shall not be this good, but who knows. Lets hope for the best. I got a few plans for next year. I will be resigning from my current job as I completed here 1 year. Will be going back to India for 3-4 months. During this time I will be taking my CCNA and MCSE. After returning to Singapore should find a new job and also start doing part time degree in bachelor of network engineering. Hope it will be a very busy year compared to 2010 but who knows what surprices awaits. Lots and Lots of dreams to fullfill. Hope they will come true some day.

Happy Christmas 2010 :)

2010-12-24T11:53:00.001-08:00

I was having a small flu and fever for last 3 days and took medical leave the whole week. I was so fed up and bored, so went out with Rohith to take some snaps.

Happy Xmas to everyone.

Almost all friends in my Facebook had put Xmas wishes on their wall, well I didnt. I thought it was too much of a cliche. Maybe I was not in a good mood. And I have no idea why the hell I am growing a beard !!!

the butterfly effect

2010-12-23T05:40:00.000-08:00

It has been said that something as
small as the flutter of a butterfly's
wing can ultimately cause a typhoon
halfway around the world

-CHAOS THEORY

happy fruit

2010-12-13T00:55:00.000-08:00

A path so lonely

2010-12-05T03:29:00.000-08:00

എന്തൊക്കയോ ആലോചിച്ചു അങ്ങനെ നില്ക്ക ആയിരുന്നു tuition ക്ലാസിനു പുറത്തെ ഒഴിഞ്ഞ കടയുടെ തണലില്‍... ഇടവഴിയില്‍ ഒരു കുഞ്ഞു പോലുമില്ല. ക്ലാസ്സില്‍ കുറെ പെന്ന്കുട്ടികള്‍ ഇരുപ്പുണ്ട്‌. എല്ലാം പരദൂഷണം പറഞ്ഞുള്ള ഇരിപ്പാ.. അതാ അവന്‍ പുറത്തിറങ്ങി നില്കുന്നത്.. ക്ലാസ് തുടങ്ങാന്‍ ഇനിയും അര മണിക്കൂര്‍ ബാക്കി.

വിജനമായ ആ നട പാതയിലൂടെ തന്റെ ഒരു സഹപാഠിയായ പെണ്‍കുട്ടി അപ്പോള്‍ നടന്നു വരുന്നത് കണ്ടു. കൂട്ടിനു ബൈക്കില്‍ രണ്ടു ചേട്ടന്മാരും.

അടുത്ത് വന്നപ്പോള്‍ മനസിലായി രണ്ടും വായിന്നോക്കികള്‍ ആണെന്ന്. അവര്‍ പെണ്‍കുട്ടിയെ എന്തോ ചോദിച്ചു ശല്യപ്പെടുത്‌കയാണ്.

വഴി വിജനമായത് കൊണ്ട് അവര്‍ക്ക് സൗകര്യമായി.

അവന്‍ ഇതെല്ലം കണ്ടു നിന്ന്. ഒന്നുമറിയാത്ത പോലെ ഒതുങ്ങി മാറി നിന്നേക്കാം. രണ്ടും നല്ല തടിയന്മാരാ. മീശയൊക്കെയുണ്ട് .. ഒരു അടി കിട്ടിയാല്‍ തന്റെ കാറ്റ് പോകും..

പക്ഷെ എത്രെന്നു വച്ച ഇതൊക്കെ കണ്ടില്ലാന്നു നടിക്കുന്നെ. പ്രശ്നങ്ങളിലേക്ക് എടുത്തു ചാടാനുള്ള അവന്റെ ഉള്‍പ്രേരണ കാരണം ഇടപെടാന്‍ തന്നെ തീരുമാനിച്ചു..

"ചേട്ടന്മാരെ എന്ഗ്ടോട്ടുള്ള വഴിയ അറിയേണ്ടത്.."
അവന്‍ ധൈര്യം സംഭരിച്ചു ചോദിച്ചു : "ഞാന്‍ പറഞ്ഞു തരാം. "

പെണ്‍കുട്ടി ഈ നേരം കൊണ്ട് ഓടി ക്ലാസ്സിലേക്ക് പോയി ...

"അവനായി .. അവന്റെ പാടായി" എന്നായിരിക്കും അവള്‍ കരുതിയിട്ടുണ്ടാവുക

താന്‍ ഒറ്റക്കാണ് എന്ന് ചിന്ത അവനു തോന്നിയില്ല

വായിന്നോക്കികള്‍ രണ്ടും ബൈക്കില്‍ ഇരുന്നു അവനെ നോക്കി ഇളിഭ്യരായി ചിരിച്ചു..
പുറകില്‍ ഇരുന്നവന്‍ ചാടിയിറങ്ങി ബൈക്കില്‍ നിന്നും
മുന്പിളിരുന്നവന്‍ സുഹൃത്തിനോട് പറഞ്ഞു "ഡാ വേണ്ട വിട്ടേക്ക്"

ഇത് കണ്ടു അവന്റെ നെഞ്ചിടിച്ചു ..
"വല്ല കാര്യവും ഉണ്ടായിരുന്നോ ?" അവന്‍ മനസ്സില്‍ പറഞ്ഞു
"മിണ്ടാതിരുന്നാല്‍ മതിയായിരുന്നു ..ഇടി തരാനാവും ആശാന്‍ വരുന്നത് ...

വരട്ടെ... !!

പേടിച്ചോടുന്ന പ്രശ്നമില്ല..

ഇപ്പോഴാനെങ്ങില്‍ ആരുമില്ലാ .. സംഗതി secret ആയി ഇങ്ങു മേടിക്കാം.. തല്‍കാലം ആരും അറിയത്തുമില്ല "
"ആ പെണ്ണ് എവിടെ ? ഇതാ പറയുന്നത് ഒരുത്തിയേയും വിശ്വസിക്കല്ലെന്നു "

ഉള്ളിലുള്ള ഭയം അവന്‍ പുറത്തു കാട്ടിയില്ല... ബൈക്കില്‍ നിന്ന് ഇറങ്ങിയ ആള്‍ ഓടി അവന്റെ അടുത്തേക്ക് ചെന്ന് കൈ പിടിച്ചൊരു shakehand കൊടുത്തു. എന്നിട്ട് അയാള്‍ ചോദിച്ചു

" എന്താ അനിയന്റെ പേര് ?"

അവനേതോ ഒരു പേര് പറഞ്ഞു. സ്വന്തം പേര് പറഞ്ഞില്ല.
പിന്നെ അയാള്‍ക്ക് അറിയേണ്ടത് അവന്റെ 'വീട് എവിടെ' എന്നായിരുന്നു
തൊട്ടടുത്താണ് എന്ന് അവന്‍ കള്ളം പറഞ്ഞു.

"ഊരും പേരും എല്ലാം ചോദിച്ചിട്ട് ആളെ കൂട്ടി വന്നു തല്ലനായിരിക്കും" അവന്‍ കരുതി

ഇത്രയും പറഞ്ഞിട്ട് അയാള്‍ ഓടി ബൈക്കില്‍ കേറി പെടന്നു സ്ഥലം വിട്ടു..
"ഇവനൊക്കെ ഇത്രക്കെ ഉള്ളോ.?" അവന്‍ കരുതി

ഒരു കൊച്ചു ഹീറോ ആയ ഭാവം ആയിരുന്നു അപ്പോള്‍ അവനു. പക്ഷെ ഒരു ഈച്ച പോലും കണ്ടില്ല അവന്റെ heroism.
"Total waste of time and energy" അല്ലാതെന്തു പറയാന്‍ ?

എന്തായാലും ഇനി മേലില്‍ ഇത്തരം മണ്ടത്തരങ്ങള്‍ കാണിക്കില്ലെന്ന് അവന്‍ തീരുമാനിച്ചു.

ഇടവഴിയില്‍ ഒറ്റയ്ക്ക് നില്‍കാതെ അവന്‍ പെട്ടന്ന് ക്ലാസ്സിലേക്ക് പോയി.

Money + Frienship = Iceberg + Titanic

2010-11-22T08:06:00.000-08:00

The two things that holds the worst chemistry among eachother are MONEY & FRIENDSHIP. Never ever mix them both. The possible outcome will be the loss of both. I had been in such troubles a lot of time. When friendship gets compromised in the name of money, its hard to deal with. Most of us will have gone through these throughout our lives, but its not that easy to avoid such situations. But there are things we can follow inorder to avoid such mishaps.

When we are in a financial crisis, try not to borrow money from your best friend, even if you did, pay it back asap. Dont make him ask for it. This will cause him to not lend you money next time when you are in trouble.
Dont make friends inorder to fullfill your financial needs. Thats cheap.
If you cant pay back the money within the deadline, inform your friend. Dont keep him waiting.
If your friend lend you money and suddenly if he is having an urgency, dont be selfish. Arrange money from somewhere and help him. Keep your friend's need in priority as he helped you when you were in trouble.
Only lend money to those who you really trust. Dont lend money to strangers.
Dont delay payment even if your friend doesnt care or provide a deadline. In course of time, he might feel that you are irresponsible.
Dont let people to manipulate you into transfering your funds.
Dont make financial dealings with people who swear a lot. Observe people.
Dont become a middleman in financial dealings.

Sher

2010-11-02T17:39:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was KeralaPiravi. I should have updated yesterday itself. Anyway Belated happy birthday

to our

kochu KERALAM

Below is another pic drawn during my free time yesterday. I wanted to draw Sherkhan from jungle book, but donno where or how to put the stripes. hehe. But I think he looks more like a teenaged Simba from Lion King.

Added some color

Job stuff

2010-10-07T16:48:00.000-07:00

Good morning... This is the first time I get up so early in the morning to update my blog. I was having a call @ 06:30 am regarding some application issues. So that is one more reason for me to go for work late.

Will update some interesting stories soon. Now I dont have much time. The issue regarding the apps are not yet solved. Will get back to you soon. Would love to write something in malayalam, but it consumes hell lot of time.

:(

@ Marina Bay

2010-09-26T10:35:00.001-07:00

Experiments with MS-paint

2010-09-10T23:29:00.001-07:00

These are some pictures I drew using MS-paint using normal mouse. I drew them during my free time @ work. Click on the picture to get a bigger view. :)

2010-09-10T23:28:00.001-07:00

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2010-09-10T22:57:00.001-07:00

veruthe oru mounam

2010-09-08T09:37:00.000-07:00

ചില നേരത്ത് തോന്നും എന്ത് ലോകം ആണെന്ന്.. എല്ലാരും ഒരു ഒഴുക്കില്‍ അങ്ങനെ മുന്നോട്ടു പോകുന്നു... അങ്ങോട്ടും ഇങ്ങോട്ടും വഴക്കിടുന്നു... എന്തിനാണെന്ന് ചോദിച്ചാല്‍ ...

കാര്യം നിസാരം...

ഒരു പനിനീര്‍ പൂവിന്‍റെ സൗന്ദര്യം ആസ്വദിക്കാന്‍ പോലും ആര്‍ക്കും നേരമില്ല ...

ഈ മാരത്തോണില്‍ പങ്ങേടുക്കാന്‍ എനിക്ക് വയ്യ..

ഞാന്‍ ആ നടപ്പാതയില്‍ കൂടി ഒതുങ്ങി നടന്നോളം... കാഴ്ചകളും ആസ്വദിച്ചു..

Happy Birthday to me :)

2010-09-04T12:04:00.000-07:00

എല്ലാര്ക്കും എന്റെ ഹൃദയം നിറഞ്ഞ ഓണസംസകള്‍.

സെപ്റ്റംബര്‍ 5

എന്റെ ജന്മദിനം

ഇന്ന് ഒരു ചെറിയ ആഘോഷം ഒക്കെ ഉണ്ടായിരുന്നു

കൂട്ടുകാര്‍ കുറെ മുട്ട വാങ്ങി എന്റെ ദേഹത്ത് ഉടചായിരുന്നു ആഘോഷം

വീട് വൃത്തികെട് ആകാതിരിക്കാന്‍ പുറത്തു പാര്‍കില്‍ വെച്ചായിരുന്നു പരിപാടി

മറക്കാനാകാത്ത ഒരു ജന്മദിനം

പറയാതിരിക്കാന്‍ വയ്യ

അത് മാത്രം അല്ല ഇന്ന് അധ്യാപക ദിനം കൂടി ആണ്

എല്ലാ ആദ്യപകര്‍ക്കും എന്റെ ആശംസകള്‍

long time never see

2010-06-30T10:16:00.000-07:00

Saw Myatt after a long long time

I hardly recognized her

but she still look the same

spend some time together at McD

Discussed about taking part time degree

She is also confused like me

Happy to know I am not the only one like that

a very sad truth ..

2010-06-30T09:54:00.000-07:00

Had a small headache and throat pain. So took a leave from work today.

Called mum in India

It was her 29th wedding anniversary.... June 30

Also there was a bad news

Uma aunty passed away

It was shocking

She was sleeping and she never wake up

She saw mum yesterday also

Mum said Anand was crying when she saw him

Glad to know Habeeb was with him the whole day for a support

I called and talked to him

It was diificult for me to say something

He talked to me like normal

it was really hard for me

I couldnt bear if something like that happened to me

But only when you loose someone, you will know how badly you needed them

how badly you miss them

But what had happened is happened and that cant be changed

so what I thought was, be polite and good to people you care for

we will have to part from everyone of them at some point of our life

there wont be a second chance if you were mean to them and they just left you

you wont even get a chance to say sorry

thats a wierd truth about life

emotions are never to be kept inside

just let go of your ego and say sorry to them if you hurt someone you care for

may be you wont get a second chance

a bold nightingale..

2010-06-27T09:43:00.001-07:00

I met someone..

The meaning of attraction is not about looks..

I felt it in a person who is much elder than me..

I hardly noticed her when I first saw her..

I even talked to her, only 3-4 months after I first saw her...

She is the first woman who i found similar to me..

she likes movies...

she has got interest in photography...

she draws pictures...

may be I am wrong...

She is a my only friend in UTAC now

no names or info about her..

best wishes for her :)

a better timeline ..

2010-06-27T09:36:00.000-07:00

I feel really out of tracks...

All I need is an oppurtunity to grab...

I want to go back..

start all over again..

I missed my first love.. I am lost in my timeline..

put me back in those good old days..over and over again..

I just want to live in that part of my life..

I want to rectify my faults there..

where I first had that beautiful feeling of love..

the future is bad and dark..

its hard to cope in this ruthless world..

all I ask is a chance to put my mark ..

After my vacation

2010-05-02T22:50:00.000-07:00

After a long wait i got my PR in Singapore. Now i am a Singapore PR. Went to India last month after a long interval of 2 years.

Saw my lovely nephews. Gokul & Madhav.

I was really touched when Gokul, my elder nephew cried at the airport. Then only i realize how much he loved me. Life is so strange. You think you know everyone around you and some of them keep surprising you by how affectionate they are towards you. Anyway i decided to go back by the end of this year again. I cant wait to see him.

Well I made use of my vacation. Went to learn swimming @ Beach Orchid, a 5 star hotel in kollam. It was really fun there with Gokul.

I really miss mummy, pappa, Gokul, Madhav, chechi and aliyan.

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I miss the gym.

I changed my residence to a flat. Was so fed up of the paying guest life lately. Now staying with a few friends in bedok reservoir road. So far its heaven to me.

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I took a lot of pictures from my cam. I really enjoy photography. Improved a bit recently. But lots to learn. It will take time.

the goal

2010-02-19T12:15:00.000-08:00

@ TP

2010-02-05T09:58:00.001-08:00

After work out.. Thanks to Gopu.

Some pics taken by me

2010-02-05T09:39:00.000-08:00

I have been longing to buy a digital cam since i got my job. Finally bought one .. Sony alpha 330..

There are still a lot of things i need to learn in photography. Anyway i managed to take some snaps from Bedok and Changi.

Welcome 2010 !

2010-01-11T08:24:00.000-08:00

Happy new year

The Bowling Game

2009-12-16T13:02:00.000-08:00

To spare some time ...

2009-10-02T23:55:00.000-07:00

I am looking forward to writing a story recently. Sometimes my head is full of different subjects for stories. But I am really lazy to write it down. Whenever i am inspired there will be a prototype but its incomplete and I usually loose track when I am suddenly busy and later on gets detached from the feeling of nurturing it.
I am greatly inspired by the stories of Luc Besson and James Cameron. Their subjects will always be totally different and unpredictable.... not to mention entertaining and complex. So I think i should really sit back and brain storm a random story from my ideas I have gathered. More over I really do have a passion for film making and screen play writing. If i spend time i think i can definitely come up with a good story. Like Basheer said "Stories are everywhere...what we dont have is the eyes to see them."

A teacher's day...

2009-09-05T08:55:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday to me... :)

ഹാപ്പി ഓണം

2009-09-02T07:23:00.000-07:00

എല്ലാര്‍ക്കും എന്റെ ഓണസംസകള്‍.........

വീട്ട്ടുകരും നാടും ഒക്കെ ഇല്ലാതെ ഒരു ഓണം കൂടി...........

ഓണത്തിന് ജോലി ഉണ്ടായിരുന്നു......

എല്ലാം കഴിഞ്ഞു ഓണം സുനിലിന്റെ വീട്ടില്‍ ഓണാഘോഷം.

വളരെ ഇമോഷണല്‍ ആയ ഒരു ഓണം കൂടിയായിരുന്നു.

Waiting for September...

2009-08-25T15:46:00.000-07:00

I even forgot that I had a blog. I was really into the busy life of my shift work. The work is awesome and I am really getting to enjoy it.

Also missing TP and its sports complex.

I just got my alumni card but it only allows using swimming pool.

Waiting for August 30^th for my salary. Should get the membership card which allows permission to enter the sports complex. I really miss the Gym.

Anyway I started jogging nowadays. Its fun…

Usually I go in the evening like after 6pm….

My birthday is coming this September 5^th. I decided to enjoy it myself. I am having a night shift that day. So its kind of an Off-day. Havent planned anything.

Biker..

2009-07-25T14:22:00.000-07:00

Stranger with an Umbrella...

2009-07-24T16:04:00.000-07:00

Last week was awsome... I went out with Sanjay...We watched Transformers 2 a second time... The movie is awsome... I wonder how Micheal Bay managed to directed this huge action movie..the camera and graphics are bloody awsome... Optimus Prime and Bumble Bee are superb...

The job is going good guys... my collegues are so friendly and approachable... no seniority... there are a lot of things to learn... but its really enjoyable here... my senior Mr Edmond seems to be a very nice guy to me.. although i have heard him shouting to others ...

I have to get up early in the morning ... it takes me nearly 2 hours to reach the office... last week i was on my way to office... it started raining heavily and I forgot to take my umbrella... I got out of the MRT and I wanted to catch a bus from interchange to reach my office... I reached near the traffic, however without getting wet.... Thanks to the side roofs on the walk path... I noticed everyone crossing the road had an umbrella... and they were all alone.... and most of them saw me standing helpless with the only option to cross the road getting wet.... but no one seemed to care.... i thought of asking for a lift under someone' umbrella... anyway it was normal for people to act that way... there is nothing wrong in it...

I was on my formal attire and I couldnt wait for the rain to stop as I needed to reach my office by 9amand it was already 8:50 am... finally I decided to cross the road ignoring the rain... suddenly this guy .... I just casually looked to my left and I saw this handsome.... I think he is malay ... or chinese...not sure... he offered me a lift ,... and I was so surprised as I didnt expect it...

I reached the interchange without getting wet ... I was still amazed and told him "thanks Bro.." and he noded with a smile.... I beleive its really hard to find such good people... that one deed from a stranger made me feel positive and my day great....

whoever you are ..... may god bless you bro... :)

I have got a Job.. :)

2009-07-08T14:15:00.000-07:00

After 3 months of suffering, i finally got a job.

Company : Viewqwest Pte Ltd
Post : Network Operations Engineer
Location : Clementi

The interview was fine... i wont be alone,, saj is also working there..
so i have got company...

The person who interviewed me was Mr Thames.. .

to celebrate this good news my parents and brother in law arranged a party at home...

now waiting for PR

I can Cook now

2009-06-27T11:23:00.001-07:00

I have been at Sunil’s home for past 3-4 days… I have been applying for jobs most of the time.. thanks to Sunil and other mates…. Especially Saj and Anvin… I am free to enter their home and use Sunil’s computer …. Their living room…. Even they cook food for me…. I buy them rice and eggs…

Its not a good time for me right now without a job… and yes there are some financial issues sometimes, but I do enjoy myself with their precious company…. Whenever I feel lazy someone will force me to apply for jobs… and that’s really good… someone there to care for you….

And I realized a very important thing…… its not money that is important in life… its friendship and care that’s very much essential ….. there are certain things that money cannot buy…. Life is worthlessless without these precious moments with your friends & loved ones who really care for you…..

On 21 July I had a blood donation... I missed it... i woke up late... like 12:00 pm in the afternoon.... :( it was so sad that i even put it in my PDA appointments and still i missed it...

I also learnt some cooking …. I can make fish curry and chicken curry :)
it was very difficult for me to clean the fish... the frying thing was scary... you can get burnt by the hot oil.... It was a great experience.. ;)

Teddy Bears ..

2009-06-19T12:07:00.000-07:00

June 5 was binie’s birthday… I bought her a small teddy bear…. Dint had enough money but how could I miss a good and caring friend like her… she liked the teddy….:)

I had been calling my ex-boss for my salary… that coward has been fooling us for nearly one month.. if I had been working at kfc I could have earned a few hundred dollar$ by now... but I went to work for this fcuker n my student pass got expired…

Everytime I call him he give some damn reasons… last time I got fed up.. me n sanjay called him… I talked to him nicely n ended up saying “If you are born for a single father, transfer the money 0R fCuk OfF….”

I don’t want his money anymore… if he doesn’t want to pay just say that… instead he keep telling lame reasons… Bloody %^&%*&^%&$^%# :X

Had an interview last week at a recruit agency.. I was given a questionare from hp… it was OK… the post was for technical assistant at hp… they told to call me next week… GOD knows….

Pray for me….:)

Hcaked and now...

2009-05-19T01:42:00.000-07:00

March 22 Sunday

My blog was dead for a while.. I had a really bad time with my gmail accounts..

My google and orkut accounts got hacked by some son of a bitch….. even my blog was hacked as I used google account for blogger…

The asshole who hacked me wrote really bad stuff into my orkut and blog…. The worstly affected was my orkut profile…… my name was not changed… my photos remained…. But my hobbies, career interests, passions etc were edited …. He wrote things he had in his mind.. mind blowing…. The creative stuff was he re-linked my blog to a pornsite…. Such a coward….

May 16 Saturday

I went for part time in a North Indian restaurant just for one day….

I was really in need of money and Jillu asked me if I am interested in serving buffet as his manager needed some staffs just for one day..

I just said Ok…. It was such a big decision as I was not allowed to do part time with my social visit pass…sort of ILLEGAL thingie.. hehe……..

But it was really fun…. It was a buffet meal and there were only 3 of us… me, Jillu and a senior Santhi chechi…..

All the guests were mallus (people from my place) … VIP’s…

I served them,… it was really fun… and there were some beautiful young girls among them… we really mingled among them.. and most of them liked the new guy.. ME..

One of the restaurent’s partner even called me to his home at Admiralty…

It was one of the most happiest moments…

May 19 Tuesday

Today was my long awaited graduation… the grand ceremony….

I was really really nervous… and I even decided not to show up for the ceremony…

But it just happened….. I went …. And

It was good… I had 2 guests… Jillu and Jibu…

Most of our mates didn’t show up…. But we took a lot of photographs…. Me, Aghosh and Merry….. Nithu, merry’s room mate also came… she took a lot of snaps in our ceremony attire….

I will be posting the pics soon ….. The attire … it was terrible for me….

Yesterday went for Wolverine…. I was waiting….. I knew it came online… but it wasn’t the complete movie… most of the scenes were not even given graphics… I dint see that… I heard from some friends… and not only that .. wolverine is a movie you should see from the big screen… good action … good story… jackman looks awesome…..

During my free time I also saw a few movies from youtube,… the fugitive, conspiracy theory, coffin, the unborn etc….. and I am waiting for terminator salvation and transformers 2….

Hope I will get a full time job by then…. :)

Kamal Hassans Cool song

2009-05-13T23:39:00.000-07:00

Kamal is awsome in the woman costumes.... and he is hell of an actor, dancer, director, writer, producer and a singer.... India's one of the very best Kamal Hassan in his block buster Movie... check out his dance in this clip... its really funny ...

The Work-out session....

2009-05-12T22:50:00.000-07:00

Saj & me

Me, Saj & Sanjay

2009-05-10T13:15:00.001-07:00

Quizzz.........Squeeeze...........

2009-04-16T00:11:00.000-07:00

This is a Quiz..

ABOUT അവിനാഷ് ഭാസി:

001.Real name - Avinash Bhasi
002.Nickname(s) - Unni , Avin
003.Zodiac Sign - Virgo
005.Male or Female - Male
006.Elementary - Emerates National School, Sharjah, UAE
007. Middle School - Raja Ravi Varma Central School, Trivandrum & Vidhyadhi Raja Vidhya Nikethan, Kerala, India
008. High School - St Aloysius, Kerala, India
009. College school - Temasek Polytechnic, Singapore
010. Hair color - Pink ;)
011. Long or short - Short
012. Loud or Quiet - I like to be loud.. so everyone will notice you...
013. Sweats or Jeans - Jeans
014. Phone or Camera - Phone with a camera will do
015. Health freak - So bloody health freak....I am workin out like hell :)
016. Drink or Smoke? - Neither
017. Do you have a crush on someone? - right now... I have crush on two girls... :) dont think less of me guys.. I am just being truthfull
055. Waiting for... - Getting a Job and bringing my parents to Singapore...

FUTURE:
018. Want kids? - Sure... my lucky number is 5 :)
019. Want to get married? - Not necessary...
020. Careers in mind - Be a famous person... Actor

WHICH IS BETTER IN THE BOY/GIRL YOU LIKE?
021. Lips or eyes? - Eyes can also speak... but cannot kiss... so Lips
022. Shorter or taller? - love comes in all sizes...
023. Romantic or spontaneous? - Romantic
024. Nice stomach or nice arms? - nice arms
025. Sensitive or loud? - Sensitive
026. Hook-up or relationship? - Relationship
027. Trouble maker or hesitant? - Hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER:
028.Lost glasses/contacts? - Neither.... I dont wear any
029. Ran away from home? - Home sweet Home... never felt that way
030. Killed somebody? - would have...
031. Broken someone's heart? - I dont think so...
032. Been arrested? - waiting for a chance
033. Cried when someone died? - So far Nop... I feel upset

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
034. Yourself? -Of course.
035. Miracles? - Every second has been a miracle so far..
036. Love at first sight? - it works for some people...
037. Heaven? - where there is peace... there
038. Santa Claus? - Nop... but I like his beard ... i also like Tim Allen
039 Tooth Fairy? - It works well for kids...
040. Kiss on the first date? - not a good idea...

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
041. Is there one person you want to be with right now? - On the bed??? Yup.... but no necessary to be on the bed
042. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life? - Yup...
043. Do you believe in God? - Yes.... I really really do.... a bit superstitious also..

AR Rehman

2009-04-15T10:31:00.000-07:00

This is AR Rehman... one of the talented musicians from India... His latest contribution was the oscar winning Slum Dog Millionaire

Music from a silent heart...

2009-04-08T01:51:00.001-07:00

the working of MIRACLES...!

2009-04-04T11:55:00.000-07:00

March 22 Sunday

I went to Suntech city to apply for jobs…… I went there with Sunil and Sreekanth… it was really fun with their company. We reached there at 1 pm… the job applying was really smooth…. After that I went for blood donation……. It was my second time……….. felt good…..

March 23 Monday

Anvin’s Birthday……… I wanted to give him a surprice… so we (Sunil and me) decided to buy a birthday cake for him… the surprice thing was kept very secret… but at the last moment I bought the cake and accidently jumped before Anvin… and he understood… the celebration was simple ….

March 24 Tuesday

Morning 7:45 am…

I am sleeping…Aghosh went for job….. suddenly I received a message …. The number was anonymous… the message said “Unni gudmrng.., angane aarelum interview nu vilicho.. no woories da..just pray n keep on trying..God shall provide you.. praying for you…”

I was surprised… who is this ? this time of the day..?
I gave a message to the sender “who?”
Then the reply came “who? You mean me?”
I was irritated and replied “NO…….me”

Then suddenly the person called me… I took the phone and it was Anju…
She talked to me for some time and told not to worry.. that she is praying for all those who dint find a job…

After that I again lied down to sleep.. suddenly there was a TODAY newspaper on the bed… and I just took it and read these words… “tomorrow its too late”

The words were really touching… I felt something somewhere weird…..

First of all the unusual call from Anju .. second, these words…

I just put the paper aside and slept again

Morning 9:30 am…

My phone rang and it wake me up… I attended the call and it was sanjay…
He told me there was an interview at 10:30 am… so get ready quickly..

I was like “what the ………? ” I am not prepared for an interview.. also I should get there within one hour… I need atleast half an hour to take a bath… no printed resume…
My shoes are torn…. Shirt is not ironed……….. IMPOSSIBLE………

And finally the vacany was for an ASP.NET programmer…. I don’t know ASP.NET..
So why cant I not go… but how… this is the first time someone is calling me for an interview…

So I was left with no choice but to attend the interview…but it was a mission to get there in time… so I somehow managed to get ready and took my resume in my thumb drive…
Ironed the shirt…. The next problem is shoes… my shoes are torn…I didn’t buy a new one… I thought to borrow from Sunil…. But it would make me late for my interview….

By god’s grace… there was Aghosh’s shoes outside… it was clean and polished… I wore those shoes…. It was a task wearing it… if my foot size was 9, this shoes was 8… somehow I managed to wear it… it was a little uncomfortable wearing a tight shoes…

Next task … take print out for resume…. I went to college to take print out…

After 2 hours………..

2 miracles happened………………….

Miracle 1 : I got the job :)
Miracle 2 : I forgot to take my thumb drive from the print out shop……. :(

Awsome Moves.

2009-03-25T20:51:00.000-07:00

Cool Moves of Hrithik Roshan..... One of the best Dancers and emerging super star of Bollywood.......

Facing forward..... :)

2009-03-18T09:32:00.000-07:00

March 9 2009

Life is getting too hard now a days...

Suddenly when the major project was over, I feel a sort of aimless.

I am not sure how others feel during this period.

I am totally confused and its more like lost in the woods or something like that...

I am lost... dont know whom to trust and whom not to

March 12 2009

I passed my diploma.....

Now should find a job.

The recession is a really a menace for fresh graduates like us.

I should find a full-time job...

As I have a PR offer-letter, soon after I find a job, I can be a PR...

Anywayits tough time for me now...but I am lucky that God is beside me....

Now I am waiting for my graduation ceremony.....

Lost in Time........

2009-03-01T09:27:00.000-08:00

Hai guys... days are a bit busy now.. the major project presentation was the greatest obstacle I was about to face the previous week.

And

finally, its over...

it happened last thursday... I was really tensed .....

but i think i did it quite well...

now we are doing some enhancements... so cant go for part time

i really miss kfc.... today i went there.. had work...

i really enjoyed..... weekdays cant go due to the project....
no enough money also......

should start sending resumes to companies....
pray for me guys...

I know you are a meek
But always think before you speak

I know you are so frank
But sometimes you think like a crank - to someone special

Capuccino is way too busy....!!

2009-01-23T23:32:00.000-08:00

I cant update my blog like before..... i cant say that i dont have time.....

i have time for everything.....

but stilll i cant control myself from being lazy............

the MP is really boring …..

I am totally confused………

I got a new problem now…. Actually its not a problem…….

Really excited and at the same time fed up with it…

Will share it with you guys later………

And all those who care for me…..

Especially Sitti, Rongping, Jilu, Binie, Remya, Sunil and Anvin……………

My prayers will always be with you…

Thanks for being my good friends…… :)

MP

2009-01-18T13:41:00.000-08:00

I am recently very busy....... Major project started... Should study some coding.... no time to go for part time.... will start writing soon.,,,, i have a lot to say.... i need some time...... which is what i dont have right now.................

Some moments from 2009...

2009-01-11T20:44:00.000-08:00

Sitti , Rongping and Jilu

Sitti and Rongping...

Sitti, Rongping N me...........

at Orchard Mc Donalds after work from KFC...

Welcome 2009...

2009-01-01T08:18:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year...............to every one...

When you miss your loved ones...

2008-12-24T11:54:00.000-08:00

This is my cute pie Gokul

Happy Christmas......

2008-12-24T09:39:00.000-08:00

Today was Christmas...... a very special day....

So haappy Christmas to everyone......

I couldnt go to church.......

Because of the rain, I was stuck at home...

I gave SMS wishes to all special friends .....

Sort of boring.....

At 11.30 pm, i got up n went to Interchange....

I was so bored, so i decided to watch Shah Rukh Khan's RNBDJ (Rab ne Bana di Jodi)

but unfortunately the movie was gone already,.. so i returned home disappointed...

then went to Mc D with Sunil n ate a Sunday Strawberry ice cream..........

Well there are some other good things also that i did ...

today morning

As it was raining i was alone at room and so i did a little work out

I took 100 push ups... n 25 crunches....

that was a good feeling.....

from evening onwards it was quite boring for me...

called home ... wished Xmas..... n thats all for today..

the above pic.... i drew the beautiful lady..... the two pics are slightly different..

check out the differences.....

Click on the picture to get a clear view..... there are six

differences...

this is Avinash .. Looks like he is selling phone in a fish market....! :)

waiting for christmas...

2008-12-21T09:13:00.000-08:00

Today had work at kfc..... yesterday i slept at 5 am... went to prime with Sunil n bought Ice cream n grapes...

funny combination right......?

but it was awsome............

today woke up at 3 pm..........

when i went to work;... i heard there were some quarrells among some of the staffs........ i dont know what happened exactly......

anyway it was an OK day for me........

Jilu, Rongping n Sitti was there for help//.........

i started an account in Friendster

Some of my friends are there.;;; its cool .. i need to add some of my photos...

Nothing special to write.......

have a lot of things to share..........but nothing is coming to mind right now...

I drew a lot of pictures during my free time at work... I would like to share them with you guys,,........

2008-12-17T07:26:00.000-08:00

NOTE->To get a better view, please click on the pictures....

this is a real life person.... her name is lim chen (i hope the pronounciation is right... but this is how everyone calls her)

i calls her HWG (Hard Working Girl) ...

She is very dedicated n hard working.... she is sitting next to me at work ....
she is very reserved n never talks too much...

one day I felt really sleepy n dint have anything to do.. then i saw this HWG still staring at the computer n doin her job....

she dint move so much..... so it was easy for me to draw her without her knowing it.....I send it to her through the office communicator............................it was very funny....,

She liked it n said " youvaa.... very naughtyaaa.."

Pretty Woman..!

Naughty Kitty...!

Strong Guy.....

this is Two face ... one of my favorite villains of Batman....

my best Villains of all time........... Joker.....

“EYEPA…..LOUUPA…….YOOOOUPA”

2008-12-02T02:05:00.000-08:00

Life is just moving on people…. I have a special interest in making new friends recently… Yen Chen is my master… he taught me many things.... he is a free soul… I just want to be like him……

Well….. I had decided to continue my blogging as long as I can…. I think a blog is like a bibliography of a man’s life…

Bibliography…!

Sort of…

So my suggestion is to just start a blog and keep filling it with your crazy thoughts….

Who knows …?

May be you become famous and when you get old, some one wants to write a book about you… you don’t have to remember all the good things happened in your life…. Haha..

Especially my one…. Its inspired from a love…. So its sweet and soft like the first snow…. Well the first snow is not sweet…

ok….

Soft like first snow and sweet like a cotton candy…. !

does that make any sence,….! ?

Guys have you watched the video “The Evolution of Dance” in the youtube..?

Its very cool…… do watch it…

The worst part is that after watching this video I have developed a fascination towards dancing…. Well I tried a few steps when I was alone…

Alone means….. when ever I m alone… m dancing…. Donno if any body noticed me…

I hope not…

I know its really dumb… but u know…. If u like something ….Just go for it…

Its your life… you are a free bird…. Enjoy your freedom…..

I enjoy doing it when m doing my part time at KFC… I will be in charge of throwing the rubbish most times… so on the way m alone…. And I really make use if this time for my …. So called training…

You can call it the “RUBBISH DANCE”…. Haha….. :)

I have become half vegetarian now…. Daytime eats only vegetables… for dinner I takes non-veg….. well feeling good… trying to get a little more thin….. donno if I can continue all these new habits….

Now a days m seriously working out… there is a great difference in my shape…. I m not absolutely sure if I can make it… nothing is impossible ...just try…..

I am now learning to be more positive…

just trying to say more YES and less NO….

I mean no more NO…

In fact instead of NO I usually say

NOP….. J

It’s the ‘P’ language…. It’s a code language… for eg: if u want to say I LOVE YOU to a girl in front of her parents….. use the Pee language….

So you say

“EYEPA…..LOUUPA…….YOOOOUPA”

I am not good at it….

I really don’t know how to say FCUK in the P language…. :(

Moments ..

2008-11-23T09:10:00.000-08:00

Today was my cousin sister’s marriage… I missed it,… I am very close to her…

I have a lot of cousin sisters from my father’s relation… some of them have kids of my age also…

But I only contacts this one….. her name is Jitha….very Intelligent person.,,, very studious…she is doing her MBBS now…she got selected on merit…

she was very tensed today….. I called her and spoke to her…. It was a family get together,…

mom and sis told that today everyone asked for me……

I was really tired today… started my work at 11 am and ended at 10 pm….

Yesterday i came home after work at 3 am… I didn’t sleep…

we really enjoyed the work… me, Rongping, Sitti and Jazli…

we went to Mcdonalds and ate nuggets and Sunday chocolate AT 2 AM,,…..

if I never worked that day… I would have really missed a wonderfull day if I dint worked that day..…

I wont forget that day… I really enjoyed the work …

…… anyway I got really “fCUKEd” today…

The fcuking manager gave me only one meal only… I ate only one fillet burger and three drumlets…

…. And there was a new fcuker(manager) also today…. I dint get time to shave today… he gave me a last chance anyway,…

U know….a FIRST TIME LAST WARNING….

His voice is like his throat got pregnant….

I don’t think I will go straight with this new asshooole………

Moon MOOn..

2008-11-18T09:05:00.000-08:00

Finally

India

has send its first satellite Chandrayaan-1 to the moon ….

it is not just a satellite send to moon….

This is going to change

India

’s image among the developing countries of the world….

This mission is a historic moment for

India

….

Besides that, this mission is also a mile stone for science and technology,,…

Chandrayaan is going to moon to make a complete study about the moon… it wont be landing on the moon’s surface…..

it takes pictures of the moon’s surface from different angles and does research like chemical mapping , mineral mapping….etc…

Besides that no other satellite has studied about the polar regions of the moon…

chandrayaan will be doing it…So that we can know whether if there is any sign of water vapour on the polar regions…..

It will spend time on the moon’s orbit for 2 years and sends data to earth…. In general chandrayaan will be able to make a complete repository about the moon…..

Go for it

India

….. Go for it….

in search of something ...

2008-11-18T08:57:00.000-08:00

Guys…… so lazy to type now a days..…….

My dad feeling very good after his surgery…. Mum and Pups nowadays having sweet quarrels….

I miss that…

its really fun to be in between their arguments…. It wont be serious and never lasts for long…

I usually take mums side and my sis will take pappa’s side…..

Now lot of money wasted on phone calls… I had to talk to both of them to settle this thing…

pappa says something about mum and I think that he was right and then I talk to mummy…. Then she say something and I feel that she was also right….

Its very fun….. both of them complaint about each other like kids,.... haha :) and i will be their councellor....!!

And in between them there is little muthu…. He is really a crying machine at night time ….…. Every one hour his tummy needs to be filled…. Otherwise he will make you do it…. Babies are like that…. They cries and shits…. and the innocence in their eyes… pure gift of god…. I have seen him smiling in his sleep… it’s a very funny and lovely thing to watch…….

Now a days always late for kfc and infineon….. not at all interested….

I used to go to kfc in time before.. now don’t know what happened…

Always late….. Every time I feel bad being late….. even if I want to go early, some how I will take a wrong bus or simply the bus will be crouded or like blah blah blah….

so that I wont get there in time….

Reason….. have lost interest on everything……

First of all, I don’t like the new manager….

I just don’t like him….

All others are really good to me… he is sometimes very irritating…

if you have a strong passion....

2008-11-06T05:14:00.000-08:00

So long haven’t blogged… really bored…. No new things happening to write…. I feel like loosing all my good old friends….. now have only a few people to talk …. Everyone are busy…..

At infineon, Remya is there…. But Yen chen is shifted to another department… so boring without him.. He used to teach me magic during free time…. Now hardly see him…

At kfc, Jilu and Rongping….. both good company… Sazali also free to talk anything… have a positive attitude….. Ryan also nice guy… but always makes me angry , …. But he is a very nice guy… he tried to teach me some…. cool break dance steps…. …. and one more kool person...

our manager at kfc... Sitti..... really wonderful person.... i am praying to god please dont take her away from Lido... Very free and frank personality....

Even if she is serious she talks very calmy and i never felt offended when she gets angry to me... I feel very comfortable to work with her... a caring person...

Gina is gone ...Jessie is Gone.... i really miss both of them.... :(

From India, Jenu and Ananth… really caring friends of mine…. Both of them are my very best friends…. I can swear on god, its really hard to get friends like them…. Really sincere guys…. I am so unlucky that they are so far away from me….

I am dying to be an actor……. After these studies and stuff ……. Should get a good job…. Then I should pursue my dream,……… it’s hell of a passion I started to nurture since I was 14 years old…… its still there…… I hope it will come true…

If you have a strong passion it will come true… I believe….!!!

This is a teaser of blockbuster Dhoom2....stass Hrithik Roshan, Abhishek Bachchan, Aishwaria Rai, Uday Chopra n Bipasha Basu..

Life is full of mistakes...

2008-10-27T09:56:00.000-07:00

Didnt called her today.... Usually i calls her to wish ....

Maybe she expected me.... I will be her great friend.... Will call this Christmas.....

Should tell her that I know her house.... Thats a great secret...

That was an adventure i can never forget....

Me goin to show her house to buddy Habeeb in my Bike....

without a licence at the night time.....

the greatest thrill was that , i met with an accident...with a drunken cyclist..

and the guy made a scene and people gathered.... Everyone was on my side as it was not my fault..

and there was a police station nearby and i managed the situation as i said that i dint had a licence.........and poor Habeeb..

we both went to a cycle shop and repaired his cycle... i paid 50 rupees...
Usually i dont take money with me... That day fortunately i had exactly 50 rupees that my mother gave me....

and another thing is that even my mother doesnt know about this....Its a secret kept by me, Habeeb, Anand and Kuttu, my cousin .....

That was a great experience.....

Life is full of mistakes ....make a new one today....
You will learn how to solve it...

A day of sparkling joy....

2008-10-27T09:39:00.000-07:00

Today was Deepavali… The third Deepavali without my family… I didn’t had any celebrations.. I cant celebrate without them.. I went for work..

work

I called Mummy to wish Deepavali…..At home my brother in law and Pappa bought crackers for more than thousand rupees…..

They started celebrating from yesterday…. She said my little nephew was so happy and laughed so much yesterday when he saw the fireworks….

I hope they don’t miss anyone….

Maybe its my wrong feeling…

Last week went to see the movie Eagle eye…. Such a wonderful movie…

it had great suspence and great thrill packed with superb action… I haven’t seen a thrilling movie like this after “Illussionist”………..

I give a five star rating for the movie…. Pls do go and watch if you like some adventure and suspence….

That day I saw Binie…. Havent seen her for a long long time….

We talked for some time…. Her SIP is also boring like mine…..

Got my phone yesterday… showed Rongping and Jilu…. Everybody liked it…. Took a photo with Kajun Aunty yesterday... She also liked my phone….

I did what I wanted to do....

2008-10-24T06:41:00.000-07:00

I just want to stop blogging….I don’t think I should continue..coz I started it with someone else and now …I feel an emptiness……I dunno….! May be m thinking nonsence…

Someone inside me is telling to just go on….keep writing….everything is created for a purpose….i hope I will find it later…So just go on….

So I have some happy news to share with you kool people….Yesterday my salary came…today went to Mustafa to buy a phone……HTC touch…

but everywhere no more stock…. I went to semei, and enquired in a shop called challenger ….they had one phone…the one and only stock there……….but it was green in colour… it phone dint look good to me in that colour….

Then I went to a star hub shop…fortunately they had black color HTC…..there I ordered one piece in black color….so tomorrow will get my phone…. J…..cant wait….

And finally after a month of struggling I will get my phone….

Now a days m feeling much better….i have a new best friend now…. Rong ping… very supportive and understanding…. Thanks god…. Got one more friend to share my probs ….

Anyway there is some bad news also…..My senior collegues at the office is trying to pressure me with their work….. I get jobs from a few of them…. Now the problem is everyone want me to do their work first…. …. I am fed up of it….. last week when a senior blamed me for no reason (on this subject)…Usually I wont say anything……..Maybe its very hard to irritate me… donno….!!

This time I told her that I do their jobs according to priority…. I think she dint like it… But I dint say anything wrong… I have only two hands…. How cam I do their work together….thats impossible….if they have their own politics, i am not bothered and I don’t care…… I just do my work…whoever gives me first….i complete their work first…

I am not a robot……….

I don’t think that I have said anything wrong….. no regrets on that….!

If I should die tomorrow, I will have no regrets. I did what I wanted to do. You can't expect more from life.

നാലു വരി....

2008-10-10T22:06:00.000-07:00

This is a poem i wrote when i was doing my tenth standard...(O level)....

വാര്‍ദ്ധക്യം മുറ്റിയോരില താഴെ വീഴും കണ്ടു ,

ചിരിക്കുന്നൂ ഇളം തണ്ടില്‍ കിളിര്‍ത്ത ചെറു ദലങ്ങള്‍ .

അറിയുന്നില്ലീ ഗതി തങ്ങള്‍ക്കും വരുമെന്ന് ,

അറിവില്ലായ്മ പലപ്പൊഴും നയിക്കുന്നു പാപത്തില്‍ .

Go for it..

2008-10-09T05:00:00.000-07:00

Work at the company is really boring…Its like sitting the whole day in front of computer like a freak….i will sleep sometimes during work…the bad thing about it is that I cant control it…it just happens….

If I sit the whole day in front of a computer like this, I will become fat and lazy like some rich people…..I don’t get enough time for work out…

But now a days I manage to go to Gym atleast three times a week…..I have felt some differences in my shape …. Got some biceps and chest….If I wear a tee shirt, it will show…..But my dream is a six pack abs….I am trying my best…but don’t have enough time…..I don’t think I will get a six pack abs…..but I should try….. Currently Salman Khan is my inspiration.. He is a dedicated body builder and the only eligible bachelor in the bollywood film industry..…. He is such a cool guy….his dance moves are awesome….I have heard that he is nearly 45 years old…..but he looks only 28…..thats great….

I don’t think I can be like him as, I am not cool…. But he inspires me….

I want people to see me in a good shape….especially her….!

So I would like to conclude by saying the Rocky V dialogue

Just “Go For It”….!

Work Hard with a vengance....

2008-10-06T04:47:00.000-07:00

Yesterday after work I slept late…..today I was so tired and dint even took my breakfast ….. I slept in the office during my work….when I opened my eyes I saw the girls sitting nearby looking at me…I felt so embarrassed…..but couldn’t control….I slept again looking into my computer…..also I dreamt about her today during my nap……
That was funny…and I felt some energy afterwards….

I don’t want to talk much about today. Mrs Choy was getting into my nerves in the evening with her stupid demands. I does 100 ‘s of her documents each day…and always expects an appreciation……and what does she do..??.she finds simple mistakes from those huge tasks…

Most supervisors get angry when we do a mistake.....in my case its totally different...She just gets nervous in front of me....now that makes me nervous ....She always tells that she is very particular, and makes mistakes as she is a human......I am also a human being…not a warewolf..

....I don’t know when m going to burst myself and paste her onto the walls…….

But I don’t know, to be honest, I like her….. When ever I am with her I gets a presence of someone I miss….. As I said before, I don’t want to talk too much about her because today as I was talking about her to my friend during lunch (scolding things….u know?//) ..I accidently bit my tongue …I wont be able to eat food properly for the next one week.... I am afraid if I type too much about her, I may cut my fingers…..hi hi

I hope Mrs Choy wont find my blog….Sorry mam…..

Home Sweet Home

2008-10-06T04:46:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I called home…..Mr. Madhav (6 months old cutie boy), my nephew…we call him “MUTHU” which means pearl in Malayalam…..is a caterpillar now….he wants to eat everything he sees….i talked to him yesterday…..he was laughing at the phone when he heard my voice…..and Mr.Gokul (5 year old cute boy), my next nephew is very proud to be the Big B (Big Bro) of Madhav….. yesterday gokul told me a secret that he beaten his small bro to sleep when nobody was in charge….

Life seems like an empty vessel without them….. I can say that I am happy now…...but I am not happy without my family…….i miss my mum and dad each and everyday…..so I call them everyday…..I don’t know when I will be able to go home….maybe next year….. donno……

I have no big plans…..only small dreamsss…….I am nurturing them…..my secret passion….. I hope it will come true………

But I have no direction ….. I am like a feather that floats in the wind…… I leave everything to almighty …..to my God……

The Dream

2008-09-29T09:00:00.000-07:00

This is a dream that I saw last week.....i felt this dream and it was very nostalgic....so i just wrote it up....i would like to share it with you....every thing written below is an exact copy of events that happened during my dream....

To miss (Someone)

I am at Lekshminivas…I calls her and invites her to my home at kilimanoor…she agrees to come….and she came…she is wearing a churidhar…she looks beautiful…..i received her and took her inside….i don’t know what happened then….i must have introduced her to my parents…she might have joined us for lunch…..

Then suddenly the dream is resumed when its time for her to leave….i am taking her to the gate….we are standing near the post….buses stop there…..we are waiting for bus number 29….i don’t know if this number has any significance in my life …. Its neither my birthdate nor her’s…..her’s is on june 18th or july 18th….. I should ask her some day….. so that I can call her and wish her happy birthday…. Also if I am in india I can buy her some presents….i always loved to….!

We are talking…..both of us seem very happy….i am flirting with her….also I tell her that last time when I called her on phone her brother took it…..every time her mother takes it and I often talks to her ……it was on 13/09/08 ….so I tell her to give my regards to her mother……she seems to like my company…….my heart is beating so fast that I am filled with love…… she may know it…….she knows….. I haven’t got a chance like this to talk to her…this dream is beautiful…

I like her smile….i like her eyes….she has big round eyes…..i like her hair…..its long and strong…..i think it is light brown in colour…..whenever I see purple or pink flowers ( yah….. there are pink roses ….i know…) she comes to my mind…..whenever I see a romantic movie …..she comes to my mind….whenever I hear a love song…she is there ……whenever I goes to sleep….i prays for her……..

While we were talking some people gather at the bus stop….there is a man with hair…he is fat and brown…..at first I thought he was a woman….he misbehaves to her and I am angry at him….there is a talk…….and the guy sounds to have good contacts…..she is so angry……I am trying to cool her down…but she is off control….she threatens him that she will file a case against him….the guy looks around and asks if anybody is a witness…everyone remain silent…..then a blind person comes and tells her that he is willing to be the witness(Kalabhavan Mani)…..she agrees and thanks the blind guy……I wonder if she has any concern about me……she can ask me to be the witness……..how the hell can a witness be blind like him……………..

wierd…!!! ???

…but this dream is beautiful…because she is there…….

The bus number 29 passes without stopping and everybody is talking about her courage and I looks stupid……….

I think this sentence should be rephraced…..everyone is busy talking about the issue, even she……and the bus passes without stopping that leaves a look on my face that says ….” What the hell is goin on….? Are these people crazy ?“

The dream is resumed without showing what happened after the bus stop issue……we are still walking…..we are talking…..i am not sure what the subject is…?…….but I know one thing….i am going to propose her before she leaves…I am going to tell her that how much I love her… that is a decision……….i am so excited…...

This is a beautiful dream……

On our way we see Yen Chen…….he smiles at me and walk past me without talking…I wonder he is going to give magic lessons…..,maybe his first class…that’s why he is happy………he told me so on 19/09/08 while we were going for lunch after working at infineon…….

We go to a beach….it looks like a beach…..it has a bridge nearby……I wonder where the bridge goes……maybe its not a beach….….but i can see the horizon…..its beautiful ………..it should be evening right now…..i see Donovan and a girl…..i think it’s a girl… walking past me to the bridge……..we say hai to eachother….he goes to center of bridge and takes off his clothes…..no he dint took off his underwear,….he cant do that,.. there are so many people at the beach…..

I am so astonished when he jumps to the water from that high bridge……….he is swimming…..there is a plane floating on the water….what does that mean?...yes…. a big plane…..i assume it is silk air….when Donovan swims past the plane….it appears to be the size of a car….thats weird……….

Where is she………?

Oh……..she is sitting and talking to some girls and some of my friends………….i went to ask some of the guys at the beach, to teach me swimming………so that I can also jump like Donovan………………I see him ….now he is resting……he looks exhausted….may be drank too much water…..hi hi……………

I didn’t go to learn swimming………..i came back to her……she is not looking at me…something is not right!…somebody told her something about me…I wonder who that could be …and what he or she told her???……and she seems to have believed it…..i talked to her and she gets angry………she is yelling something and that is something I never did or meant………i ask her to trust me……but she is not ready…I also gets angry while she again says that I did something that never happened ….it made me angry……..i tells her with bursting anger….” Don’t ever accuse me of something I have never done ok………..? you have no right to talk like that about my character or personality…..if you don’t want to talk to me …fine……..go home…don’t stay....”

While I was saying that I saw her looking at my face and her eyes bursting with tears…she was crying? ,…..but I could’nt stop me from saying that…I just walked away……. I was heart broken….

We all got into a bus….she is also in the bus…….she is with some of my friends…..i didn’t look back….i was on the second row…..the bus was so crowded…..

Then I thought of her…..what happened to her…why she misunderstood me…..i cant stand such wrong judgements…..there is nothing wrong on my side….let her apologise to me first……then we shall talk again….

Thoughts kept coming into mind………

When I invited her she travelled all this long way to see me… alone….thats because she cared about me…..and what have I done…?..i insulted my guest….. my love….. in front of a croud….

….i was going to propose her this evening…

Instead………?

I made her cry……what an idiot I am………??

How can I make anyone cry..? and a girl ……also my love she was.

What happened to me………? I was not like this………!!

i could have talked calmly later when she cooled down..…I felt terribly wrong…her crying face came to my mind and I couldn’t bear it….my heart was beating like some disaster took place..….i started weeping silently because I was surrounded by friends…when the bus stopped we all got down and I looked for her….but she was not on the bus…... I told my friends that I was going to meet her at her place…..i decided to tell all my feelings for her……..i didn’t know what was going to happen…..i just took a bus to my mother’s place…..i knew her home…..i wished if she was near me………..because I missed her so much………..

no…...!

I missed her always….!!!